I had never seen Lukas so pale before. His emotions mimicked mine perfectly. It seemed as if I had a knot in my throat that I just couldn't swallow and my breathing began to shorten significantly.
"How far along are you?" Lukas asks, seeming afraid to know the answer.
"Oh wouldn't you like to know?" Danielle replies.
"Fine, don't tell me how far along you are. Just tell me if it's mine" Lukas says, growing impatient.
"You know, I'm really not sure. There was another guy around the same time as you" Danielle starts. Suddenly, Dustin slowly walks around Danielle and positions himself so he's facing me, while resting a hand on that growing baby bump.
"It's either yours or Dustin's" she finishes, all the while maintaining a devilish smile.
I'm going to throw up. This can't be happening.
I try to compose myself and I manage to squeak out, "but I don't understand, when did this all happen? How?"
"Aww, is this too much for you?" Danielle begins in a mock tone. "Should I explain it down to the little detail of how pregnancy starts? Maybe even down to the little moves Lukas used on me?"
"Listen!" I scream, as I lunge for her. Just before I get too close, Lukas grabs me by my waist.
After Lukas gets me to a reasonable distance away from them, I turn around and shut my eyes. Trying to breath and keep your calm in a situation that is so nauseating is not easy. Then, I turn to see Lukas by my side, looking to see if I'm okay.
How could he be so caring of my feelings? He could possibly be a baby daddy! I think to myself.
In that moment, I realized that I was being selfish and not caring for Lukas who probably needed my support rather than my anger towards this "Danielle"
"I'm sorry" I say, turning to him. "I'm okay, I'm here for you"
"Babe, don't worry about it, okay? It'll all be okay. This doesn't change anything about us. We will get through this" Lukas says, lovingly. He took my hand back into his as we walked over to Dustin and Danielle.
"Do you plan on telling me if it's mine or Dustin's anytime soon?" Lukas kindly asks Danielle.
"When I feel like it, yes" Danielle responds.
"Well then, until then I don't want to hear from you. This is clearly out of my control but if it is mine, we will discuss matters then. Understood?" Lukas says
"That's it? You're not angry?" Danielle responds in shock.
"If you knew me really well, you'd know that I do not get upset over things I can't control, only the wrongs I make about the things I can." Lukas starts, surprisingly calm. "So I'd appreciate it if you both left us alone until you decide to let us know if it's mine" Lukas finishes and begins to walk away with my hand still in his.
I follow him, unsure of how I should feel. Just before we get too far to discuss anything else, Danielle shouts, "Lukas!"
We both simultaneously turn around to look at her.
"I'm 6 months along" Danielle says.
Lukas simply nods, smiles and continues to walk away. Then he says, "I knew she'd tell me"
"Really? But how?" I add, completely lost.
He smiles and says, "Because, giving them my anger is what they wanted. When I gave them the opposite, they gave ME what I wanted"
"You wanted to know how far along she was? Not if it's yours?" I ask him, still not following and completely confused by his demeanor.
Lukas smiles and says, "Exactly. Because now, I know the child isn't mine"